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Feb. 13th, 2002 02:04 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dingdongdeadso chris's step mother sharon is having a baby this summer and i can't wait. i really hope its a girl cause i don't like boys. twin girls would be awesome. i want to babysit all the time. i'll kind of be like the big sister which is cool. i love love love babies. i want to have some somday. i don't know how many yet. but before i have kids i have to go out and do everything i want to do and go everywhere i want to go, cause once i have kids i won't have freedom anymore.
anyway today rick left an asshole note on my od which really fucking pissed me off. i don't want him reading it anyway. but now that he has he probably knows i am lying about being in colorado and will be less likely to pay me back the $200 he owes me. and i want that money really bad, and once i get it, i can finally remove him from my life for good. and that will be the best feeling in the world.
also its almost definate now that jill is coming to colorado for one of the weeks that i'm there. its going to be so awkward. i don't even like her and she keeps talking about how we should hang out the whole time. i mean first of all we won't have a car so what on earth are we going to do, and second i don't want to hang out with her. she is just going to be a bitch to me and use me like she always has and i don't want to deal with it. its going to be so crowded there in the little appartment with four people and now there is no tv so we're just going to go crazy. i don't know what i'm going to do but i can't let her ruin this for me.
i'm talking to chris online right now. kind of anyway. neither of us ever have much to say besides i love you and i miss you. we already know EVERYTHING about eachother and since we have been apart neither of us have done anything but work. i mean we aren't boring we just know eachother way too well. i hate being away from him like this. i can't sleep well when he isn't in bed with me. and if i wake up with bad dreams cause i read too many vampire books he isn't there to kiss me and rub my back until i feel better and fall back asleep. i love him so much and i need him and i can't even describe how bad it feels to be away from him for so long. god i love him.
anyway today rick left an asshole note on my od which really fucking pissed me off. i don't want him reading it anyway. but now that he has he probably knows i am lying about being in colorado and will be less likely to pay me back the $200 he owes me. and i want that money really bad, and once i get it, i can finally remove him from my life for good. and that will be the best feeling in the world.
also its almost definate now that jill is coming to colorado for one of the weeks that i'm there. its going to be so awkward. i don't even like her and she keeps talking about how we should hang out the whole time. i mean first of all we won't have a car so what on earth are we going to do, and second i don't want to hang out with her. she is just going to be a bitch to me and use me like she always has and i don't want to deal with it. its going to be so crowded there in the little appartment with four people and now there is no tv so we're just going to go crazy. i don't know what i'm going to do but i can't let her ruin this for me.
i'm talking to chris online right now. kind of anyway. neither of us ever have much to say besides i love you and i miss you. we already know EVERYTHING about eachother and since we have been apart neither of us have done anything but work. i mean we aren't boring we just know eachother way too well. i hate being away from him like this. i can't sleep well when he isn't in bed with me. and if i wake up with bad dreams cause i read too many vampire books he isn't there to kiss me and rub my back until i feel better and fall back asleep. i love him so much and i need him and i can't even describe how bad it feels to be away from him for so long. god i love him.
