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i don't know whats happening with me and chris. i mean, i love him so much. and i need him. and i can't even imagine my life without him. but its like, when we aren't together, we have nothing to talk about. and when i don't talk to him i feel like we're drifting apart. and i guess we don't have much to talk about when we're together either. but when we're together it doesn't matter, because we don't need to talk. i don't know, i can't explain it. but sometimes i feel like i am with him because its the easiest thing to do, the more comfortable. its like we're married and the passion isn't there as much as it used to be. being together isn't really exciting, its just how it is. but when i am not with him i am unhappy and i just worry about him and hope he won't stay out all night cause i can't sleep when he doesn't come home. i guess i am just scared that he will realize how boring i am and not want to be with me anymore. but he won't tell me because he loves me and won't want to hurt me. so we'll just stay together even though he'll wish he could be with someone else. maybe i am just being paranoid. i dunno. i give up.

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WOLF290: you know, you really don't have to right diary entries trashing on me
Ragegrl28: you don't have to read them
Ragegrl28: i would prefer you didn't actually
WOLF290: i suppose i shouldn't read them, but you knew i'd read that one
Ragegrl28: no i didn't
Ragegrl28: and your name isn't there
WOLF290: whatever
WOLF290: what does that change
WOLF290: who else owes you money
Ragegrl28: no one
Ragegrl28: people usually pay me back
WOLF290: fuck you, you knew that it was going to take me a while to get you the money
WOLF290: you make it sound like i ripped you off for some cash
Ragegrl28: i didn't think it would take half a year
WOLF290: you're so full of shit
WOLF290: you didn't even think i was ever going to pay you back
WOLF290: no all of the sudden the money's over due
Ragegrl28: when i lent it to you i expected you would
Ragegrl28: now i just don't believe you anymore
WOLF290: it's always something with you. now you're pissed at me cuz of the money
Ragegrl28: i have a right to be
Ragegrl28: thats a lot of money
WOLF290: you never once mentioned it to me while we were at school nor called me once over break
Ragegrl28: i mentioned it at school all the time
WOLF290: no you didn'
Ragegrl28: yes i did
WOLF290: you're so crazy, must be nice to imagine things the way you want to be
Ragegrl28: i'm not crazy
WOLF290: riight
Ragegrl28: just send it
WOLF290: i used to see you every day, and then only times we ever talked since then were when you wanted help with your computer or when you wanted your money. you'll get your money. i don't want anything from a two-faced selfish bitch like yourself
WOLF290: goodbye